Be the best you can be

One of my favorite blog I've read from Isaiah Hankel's blog.This blog is really something I can relate with because sometimes I feel that I can’t do things, when I know I can. But I also fear that everyone is watching me and once I fall everyone around me will be laughing, I don’t know. It could be something else too. I know most of my fear relate to the fact I can’t do a handstand, I don’t like falling the thought of falling. I went skydiving thinking it may be it but it’s part of it because I found some confidence.

 “Take your path seriously, but not the obstacles.

It’s not a coincidence that confident people are often ambitious and hard-hitting, yet charismatic and playful, all at once. As you generate confidence, all your little worries about looking stupid or messing up will disintegrate into nothing. Self-confidence gives you the mental flexibility you need to work tirelessly towards a goal while shrugging off problems and failures along the way.

You can do anything you want it life. If someone else has done it before, you can do it. If someone else has not done it before, you can do it. You are the greatest. Talk and act accordingly.”

I know that I am what he describes however I don’t know why I have a hard time following true. I know I can deliver I am still trying to figure out the root cause of it. It’s pretty hard to determined just because I’ve been through a lot in my life and I suppress all of them from specially the bad ones. I told someone I suppress things and she told me I am a walking time bomb. And she might be right because I have so much anger that I may just blow up one day without even knowing. That’s why I need a sports to play to there I can be crazy such as screaming, pushing bag, kicking bag and any action to release any suppressed issued I have had my entire life.

I want to say it’s sad how this came about but it’s not really to be honest. I like being hard-hitting person, I know I am not a fragile flower. I am rock, no matter how many times you throw me I won’t break, throw me in the water and I will get out of it. It may be hard but I will get myself out and learn to deal with it. There’s something I can’t seem to shake off and I don’t know what that something is.

 http://www.isaiahhankel.com/blast-the-volume-on-your-confidence-and-dont-let-anyone-dial-you-down

Internal vs External Conviction

Day 3 - Isaiah differentiates internal-conviction vs external conviction.

“An internal conviction occurs when your own reasoning mind deems a certain action as unproductive or immoral. The weight of an internal conviction is easily lifted by identifying your misstep and correcting it immediately. This type of conviction acts like a beacon, alerting your mind that you’ve done something, or are about to do something, that doesn’t agree with your personal standards. In this way, internal convictions help keep your behavior consistent with your identity. An external conviction is a judgment pressed upon you by someone else. Haters will use this type of conviction to manipulate you and hold you back from your purpose in life, often while advancing their own purpose of living. External convictions can be placed on you subtly by your friends and family members, or more forcefully by your work peers and superiors.”

“Haters push their external convictions onto others to distract themselves from their own internal convictions. It is far easier for haters to plant seeds of fear and obligation in you than it is for them to overcome their own anxieties and feelings of indebtedness.” - This definitely played a role in my life for months. I ended a long term relationship, which no longer serves nor provide growth in my life. I know I didn’t end it well; I did what I knew best at the time. But the thing is we had already been broken up, all I want was to not be associated with him at all. I felt his negativities bringing me down to my lowest. I have apologized few times and it’s the only I could do but it wasn’t enough. He wants me to suffer for what I did. For a while, I took it. I let it get to me and suffer the consequences. I can’t believe I put myself in that situation again. But one day, I have had it and just decided that his actions will no longer affect me, I felt empowered!!!

3 Reason to stop feeling guilty......

1 Guilt is a useless emotion – “Feeling bad about something you did, does not erase the fact that you did it.” I totally agree, I am not saying what I did to him was right. But it was right at the moment and it's for me to find out......right now it is serving me well. I have a lot of demon in me and I am working on it one at a time. Carrying negative emotion surly slowed me down. It was like a dark hole that keep pull me.

2. You are not a sacrificial animal. – I am so used to doing things for other people. I told my best friend. i am tired of living other people's expectations and I knew i was always the opposite of my family but i had to convert to fit in and look where it got me. Living a life of lies that I brought upon myself. but now I'm over it and I have to do me now! I’ve been in the darkness too long. I will confidently "live like a lion" by Isaiah. That being said, I am my own worst enemy because I enslave my thoughts with negativities and carry with me.

“Never offer your time and energy to someone or something as an empty sacrifice. Empty sacrifices breed resentment.” I feel like this is something I do to myself too. The empty promises to myself and to others.

3. “No one deserves a guilt trip and making someone feel guilty is pure evil. The only time other people will try and make you feel guilty is when they want something from you or when they want to feel better about themselves.” I believe this is true. To make someone feel guilty is because a person does not want to take responsibility for their own life or actions. It is much easier to put the blame on someone than to yourself, specially when you do not want to change yourself for the better.

“As soon as you recognize that you’re feeling guilty, you’ve felt guilty long enough. You’ve already served your time. Don’t let haters advance their own purpose of living by forcing their external convictions on you. Focus on moving forward and fulfilling your purpose in life.”

http://www.isaiahhankel.com/flick-jiminy-cricket-off-of-your-shoulder-and-stop-feeling-guilty

Internal and External Motivations

Second blog reading by Isaiah Hankel, “6 Healthy Ways To Hulk Smash Your Competition Into Oblivion”. After reading the first two paragraphs, something popped in my head that I am competitive. Only recently I’ve admitted it to myself and proven myself during Maximum Performance Yoga certification, Yoga for Athletes. We were practicing our teaching techniques to the class, I was in the zone doing the High Intensity Interval Training or HIIT and I loved it. I felt energized and balanced, not extremely hyped. When I enjoy something, I tend to overexert to a point of injuring myself. Yoga for Athletes seems to work to my advantage, energized and balance!

Rule 3 “The Blunt Force Trauma Technique” The 10 year rule, I’ve heard it before, it sort of discouraged me, frankly. After this blog, I found hope, now it’s just a matter of doing it/working on it/practice. Hope to accomplish things in my life, be it small or big. I may not be a master of what I am doing now but I will master myself and the rest will follow.

Rule 4 “The Loose Canon Technique.” “Increasing your risk tolerance will not only blast you ahead of your competitors, it will help you develop leadership skills and improve self-confidence.” I have been told that I take the long way but I get to my destination. I believe because I pine on it for a bit, learn and move on then do something different, which may or may not work. Now I know what she meant, I take 2 steps forward then take 1 step back when an obstacle presents itself. I’m more aware of this now than before. So props to me! “Be passionate about your goals but refuse to let your value rely on anything external.” Something I have to remember at all times, as mention yesterday I rely a lot on external motivations rather than internal motivation…. ME!!!!!

Rule 5. The Divide And Conquer Technique “All of your rivals will fall to the way side if you set your standards high enough and choose to be your own competition.” I never put it that way, to be my own competitor! This will help me to think differently and shift elsewhere.

Rule 6. The Excision Technique “The quickest way to make even your biggest competitors obsolete is to change your prizes. In other words, alter the awards, or goals, that you are aiming for in life.” I reward myself when I accomplished things even the tiniest matter. Now if I can combine rule 5 and 6, we have something awesome!

 http://www.isaiahhankel.com/6-healthy-ways-to-hulk-smash-your-competition-into-oblivion

Got Motivation???

It finally hit me, I look externally for motivation in certain aspect of my life such as, staying consistent in working out including my yoga practice and eating healthy. My best friend Cathe, introduced me to Isaiah Hankel PhD, an author, international speaker with learning disability.

His blogs are definitely motivating. I have a learning disability as well, and the struggle I go through are ridiculously challenging. But compare to the average person, it’s nothing. I see pictures and think in pictures, even writing is a battle since English is my second language and not a reader, as well. However, I absolutely improved throughout time. It can only get better from now on. 

The plan will be each day I will read Isaiah's blog and write about it. To keep my blogging going and I'm sure reading his blogs and soon his book will make me more aware of things.

 “Bloom Where You're Planted And Break Free From Life's Sticking Points” Published by: Isaiah Hankel

http://www.isaiahhankel.com/bloom-where-youre-planted-and-break-free-from-lifes-sticking-points